We didn't need the space, really, but I couldn't bear to hold onto the collection of baby things our four-year-old had outgrown. The spare room closet was full of clear plastic totes. Each of those totes full of hopes...
I have less desire to carve out time from my full-time job to go to countless appointments where I try, and fail, to modestly cover myself in a too-small paper drape in preparation for physically intrusive examinations. Where even though my doctor's office is filled with caring professionals I leave feeling more like a broken incubator than a person.
I waited a long time to get pregnant. Too long apparently, because once I began the process of fertility treatments at the age of 36, my chart proclaimed, “advanced maternal age.”
Wait, what?
Thirty-six just didn’t seem that old to me....
My heart is broken because two wonderful people who loved me deeply and I loved without reserve are gone. How blessed am I to have experienced that kind of love?
For many years, the medical profession has considered women older than age 35 to be higher risk when it comes to pregnancy. Although many women age 40 and older are now having successful pregnancies, that standard remains.
"But pregnancy...
Another month and another negative pregnancy test.
I start my own personal crusade to convince myself that there is a reason. Our timing was off. My hormones were out of whack. It wasn’t meant to be. No matter the reason,...
Pregnancy is one of the most admirable sacrifices a woman makes in her lifetime. The result of intense morning sickness, countless sleepless nights, and many trips to the bathroom is a beautiful bundle of joy; a baby to call...
Forever Loved, Never Forgotten. October 15th marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, and the month of October is set aside to bring awareness as well. One in four pregnancies do not go full-term. We feel the loss of our...